Day 3/90 Days of Pleasure

Yesterday I woke up feeling groggy. I accidentally stayed up really late reading (The Once & Future Witches has me captivated). It was challenging for me to be fully present in my morning practice and my mind was racing all over the place.

Instead of fighting the airy energy I was feeling I decided to lean into it. Honoring where I was at, I opted for air touch and laid in front of a fan as I synched my breath with my movement. A moving meditation felt like a good place to meet the desire to meditate and a racing mind.

As I felt my mind wander on tasks and shoulds, I brought in mantras to help me be present in my body. I spoke into words where my energy was at and didn’t try to force anything, full permission to show up as I was. I am.

I had intended on doing a lot of work on the computer yesterday and to cowork at a local cafe. I wasn’t in that energy so I let myself do whatever felt good and continuously reminded myself that this is the “work”. My value is not defined by my productivity. My life is no longer in front of a computer.

I did end up doing work much later in the day and it came easy, my design work flowed and it felt good. I wanted to do it. I was inspired.