Sex for one
Reflections on day 65/90 days of Pleasure
I have been living an intentionally auto-erotic life for nearly two years. That means that with the exception of the erotic massage I received from a practitioner a couple of months ago, I have been the source of my body’s pleasure.
I made the decision to be auto-erotic after my last Tantra training and a disregulated dating situation ended. My desire was to be grounded in self. I didn’t feel safe in my body. I was starting to have rape flashbacks that I wasn’t sure if they were mine or ancestral. It took almost a full year to feel safe in my skin.
Why do I share this? Because it’s so integral to my work. Feeling safe in our bodies, allowing ourselves to feel pleasure, and by knowing and asking for what we want AND receiving it is a reclamation of our power. A statement of our erotic sovereignty. You get to choose. You get to be a hell yes. You get to feel orgasmic. Alive. Pulsating with life force.
Why I love Tantra so much is because it honors the whole body as a source of pleasure and orgasms are a journey, not a destination that does not have to include genitals. It’s a deeper connection to self and in partnership. Pleasure without an agenda.
My pleasure practices have seldom included genitals during this 90 day pleasure journey. Sure my genitals have been stimulated through breath and movement but I rarely touch or engage them. This is mainly because I love experiencing energetic orgasms and I have been having so much fun exploring them. Also, when I do include genitals it’s a big hell yes and my body is fully ready & open to the experience. Some other time I’ll share about extended massive orgasms.
I do find myself longing for partnership and physical intimacy. I’m coming back to opening myself up to partnership feeling so grounded in self. I’m so clear in my hell yes and my fuck no and that feels really really good.
If any of this resonates with you, consider joining us for Pleasure Playground. It’s a 3 month journey of discovery of our pleasure in a group container.
